insanityparade

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2006-11-06T09:28:00.000+13:00

stop the boat.

so im normal

2006-04-25T00:36:00.000+12:00

yeah, normal like a goth

Post one hundred and sixty six

2006-04-04T08:08:00.000+12:00

no better than i am now

im black!

2006-03-07T22:46:00.000+13:00

yes insanityparade is running again, but for how long?

everythng is peachy. wesotn, alice, peter, paul, erin, tony, laurance, ummmm, adam kate inez, nipples, nathan, pearly wearly, olly.........fuck olly..............ummmmmmmmmm yeah so its a long time and drugs and ghats and weird no emotions. school. grafotn goth scene goth scene goth cene fish.

I'm hard yet soft, I am coloured yet clear, I am fruity and sweet. I am jelly. What am I?

2006-02-26T23:25:00.000+13:00

alone

new blog

2006-01-29T16:12:00.000+13:00

my new blog is located at www.ignorethesafetyword.blogger.com

hey

2006-01-28T23:36:00.000+13:00

"the thing that makes me happy the most is knowing that you've got people around you that care about you"

Post one hundred and sixty five

2006-01-28T22:44:00.000+13:00

So many humans do not see you nobody see you nevertheless as I in the shade of your light whole far there in the back sit I I need you -ich to custom ' your light from the shade can I you see me to non you know me not nevertheless from the distance dear ' I you I respected you admire you I hope ' for you desire you Erfuehle you experience you accompany you raise you cannot no more live without you
imethis are the morning after and my soul lie fallow this are the morning after a new day begin and my time run all this write ' I you and more still braecht ' I to paper Cannot ' I with words all suffering my love you describe the message to deplore being supposed these lines to carry only I dear you to say nevertheless tonight erhaelst you this I pray which you this reads in the Morgengraun erw

WTF???

every dark cloud has a silver lining.

Post one hundred and sixty four

2006-01-27T01:00:00.000+13:00

im getting better. the road to recovery is steep but hopefully 2006 will be kinder to me, it's allreaddy showing me its nice i just need to do the rest myself. internaly im going to try.

gosh they are sad people

2006-01-26T15:08:00.000+13:00

Hi, Im only 15 and I've been cutting myself sence i was 13 years old. I dont know why i do it. I think i do it to get the pain out. I have also made suicide attempts. I think im an ugly hooible person, and i just want to die, please help me!

I will try to help you.
I think about suicide regularly. I haven't added much to this world. Anyone who is here can go on without me. I feel the pain of depression every day. I can't feel the happiness I should. I'm tired of medication and trying to find something that works. It comes back so often. The feelings of failure and looking back at mistakes. What can I offer anyone when I'm locked up inside myself. I want to give up. I don't have the ambition anymore.

Thank you for writing me.
Hi, I am a 29 yr old female that has tried numerous times to kill myself. I sometimes think I am better, but then I just get "lost" in this deep depression and I can't seem to get out of it. I have been hospitalized, on different meds and nothing seems to help. I am a College student doing very well, but there are times that I still feel so worthless and that I will still not mount to anything. I do not know where these feelings come from, and I am so sick of feeling like I do. I just feel like the only way out is taking my life. I know I would hurt a lot of people around me, but I still feel as if I would be better off if I did commit suicide. I think it crosses my mind at least once a day, and it is like I just can't control it. I am seeing a psychiartrist and psychologist, but nothing seems to help me. Is there anything out there before it is to late for me? I don't wanna die, but it is like I can't control it anymore. The more I have done it, it is like the easier it is for me and I am not afraid like I was. I have tried to talk to people/friends/family, but no-one seems to listen or take me serious until I do do something. Then they worry for a little while and then it is like "she won't do it again, or there is nothing wrong with her"... etc... please help me!

I will try to help you.
Im not at the point yet that i think about suicide all the time, but i have in the past and i probably will in the future. i always feel so alone and i am constantly depressed. i have nobody to turn to. im not a religious person so i don't turn to God. i don't know what to do anymore and im tired of crying at night. i don't know what to do.
hi. (umm i am like sorda nevous about telling a stranger this but i know i need help.) look i am 14 almost 15 and well i am depressed. majorly depressed. i have no life. i mean come on, i have no friends, i am picked cuz my apearance is different, soccer practices are really crappy (i get made fun of, tripped, soccer balls are kicked at me, and the rest of it.), my parents are constently yelling at me, i lock my self in my room and think of ways of suicide. i have tried suicide once but i couldnt go through with it. basicly i tried cutting my throat (i cringe at the word knife now.). i i am supposidly catholic, but i dont understand anything. i have researched other religions and they seem "fake" too. there is like only one thing that i understand and it is more of a culture not a religion and it is goth. i mean i love arts, music, i live my life in the dark, and so on. i dont know what to do. i am lost in this world. and i know that i wont understand it. all i think about now is suicide. my school grades are low, i dont do any work, and all the teachers hate me.

i know that a 14 year old person should be having the time of their life and stuff but i'm not. i try to live my life as long as i can, but my efferts will fall short soon i know it.

well i mise well get going. umm just e-mail me when ever..if you want. adios

Post one hundred and sixty three

2006-01-26T14:08:00.000+13:00

i want you to understand that as you read this i am going through the most intense pain.

picture bop und mich

2006-01-26T00:40:00.000+13:00

the way you cry
i see it each night
your love filled heart
i imagine its beat
yours eyes that sparkle
i dont want the tears to roll down
your beauty
and you kiss me

:reprise:

I see your tears
And I hear you cry
I long to be with you
Until I die ...
I long to hold you
And to love you
To just hide you from the world
I see it on top of your shoulders
And long to remove your pain

post one hundred and sixty two

2006-01-26T00:14:00.000+13:00

ana's whispering in my ear again

he makes me sad. and questioon. they both do. all of them gah. lollipops.

final post - bacon cooked in piss

2006-01-23T12:06:00.000+13:00

i am over my deppression. when i started this blog i never thought i could say that but i think i have survived it and come out a better person. but who am i now? im being to understand that and i think i can tell you.

I am Zanny :)

this is the end of insanityparade as you knew it.

thanks gos to: mum, ben, nana, dad, olly, mike, sam, adam, dawn, weston, sue, lyssa, lucinda, raoul, lucretia, mark, inez, steven, paul, callum, nadya, peter, hamish, kate, nipples, aleks, jeremy, mux, sofia, mat, alan, craig, atrius, vaughan, tyler, james, ross, jason, jason, alan, and anyone else i have missed.

post one hundred and sixty

2006-01-23T12:03:00.000+13:00

hanged out with adam and sam in town yesterday.

REVIEW OF MY BIG DAY OUT 2006 - post one hundred and fifty nine

2006-01-21T01:21:00.000+13:00

TOP TEN LIST
1. the happyness on drugs at mars volta, i took drugs that olly offerd me in a cleche 'goth gives the baby bat speed' kind of way. not that it was speed (ick). nothing much happend untill we had barged or way to very close to 'the mars volta' stage (missing out on iggy pop.) i instantly felt ti it was fucking amazing. the only way to discribe it is image you ARE the song 'just like heaven' by the cure.

2. taking drugs (ritz and pils)
me and luchia took some ritz, didn't do anything to me but it fucked up lu sooo bad. she was havign the best time. the pills were nice too first time in ages that ive enjoyed a drug.

3. meeting black metallers and goths
ohhhh de sexi gothis wit de black and oooh pierced boys i just want to EAT them in a sandwich with gothic sauce.

4. the rides
fucking scary but yay i was the captin and thease chicks all played planes with me heh

6. looking so cool pll ask me for photos
i looked fuck-able. lots of goths asked me for photos.

7. mudvayne mosh pit
nothing too fucking amazing but its still worth a mention. a whole load fo sweaty men. the songs dig and happy were fucking great!!

5. sola rosa spirutual dancing
the whoel room was just intranced by sola rosa's music. everyone was dancing sort of in a spiritual way just free tot he music. bloody brilliant.

8. white stripes! or the drunk german guy
white stripes rocked out to fuck. the drunk german guy...well i think ill remember him a while so im not gunna talk about his anti-rammstein antics

9. emos!
i even got a back massage from one. i have a feeling they arn't just gunna fade out.

10. crying
was a nice contradiction to how i normaly feel at bdo. set me up for a evne better time with the goths and on drugs.

im sorry

2006-01-19T18:42:00.000+13:00

im sorry for everything ive put you through. i love you and allways will. please play the cure.

post one hundred and fifty eight

2006-01-19T16:49:00.000+13:00

Sie sind mein Sonneshine
mein nur Sonneshine
Sie bilden mich glücklich
wenn der Himmel grau ist
Sie wissen nie, Liebling
wieviel ich liebe dich
bitte nehmen Sie nicht meinen Sonnenschein

post one hundred and fifty seven

2006-01-18T18:01:00.000+13:00

i never would be invited to the

im not going to stop you from going to hospital again zanny. just keep it up, i wont stop untillm your dead.

im not going to stop untill i have to go to hospital or be put on drugs or die

post one hundred and fifty seven

2006-01-17T01:29:00.000+13:00

post one hundred and fifty six

2006-01-16T22:45:00.000+13:00

i feel sick. im numb,. i hate you. god will it ever change sue no no.

maybe ill be a whore, wuith ntohing.

post one hundred and fifty

2006-01-16T17:47:00.000+13:00

happy one hundred and fiftyth lie, for you are nothing inside.
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post one hundred and fourty nine

2006-01-15T22:33:00.000+13:00

into the sea! you and me!

the cure. durgs. love cats! hahaahahaha

post one hundred and fourty eight

2006-01-14T21:36:00.000+13:00

im buzzing.

um, yeah, um,, weston is hot.

post one hundred and fourty seven

2006-01-12T23:37:00.000+13:00

i have ha this blog for so long its kinda nice.

today we tripped and then we starved and yeah um alein sex feind. lucy is staying the night tomorrow :). bloggy, i name my blog, 'basil'

post one hundred and fourty six

2006-01-10T22:49:00.000+13:00

spiel mit mir, im sorry im having some trouble udnerstanding what you are saying. its bruntaload and he is my gott. no hes not. rammsteeeein. i got what i want.

it has been said before:

post one hundred and fourty five

2006-01-09T20:23:00.000+13:00

the crow and nazis and i love my family

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weston crys alone

2006-01-06T19:59:00.000+13:00

act upon it. release, the worlds not amde for me, lets go go die get out got out of my house so to say i hate you i fucking hate you you ruined my life.

2006-01-06T19:58:00.000+13:00

I should feel joy
But I am not even near

its ok

2006-01-06T02:08:00.000+13:00

i reflect,
i reflect on what has happend,
there is nothing in the mirror.

post one hundred and fourty four

2006-01-06T01:42:00.000+13:00

post one hundred and fourty four

2006-01-05T14:43:00.000+13:00

enough pain killers?

post one hundred and fourty three

2006-01-04T00:59:00.000+13:00

im done

lets see if they notice

2006-01-03T21:33:00.000+13:00

Dad, you, mama, and our dog shall all miss your ma
And now us, now us spilled like water
And their Bush nation I made of funny josh nasty douche
Man, a snake, and I know what he had
If there are children here, my friend, you will die
fu**ing mess. You are looking for trouble
What is the difference if you
you must follow us

post one hundred and fourty two

2006-01-03T02:19:00.000+13:00

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more (so much more)
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

(Return to me salvation)

(I want to die)

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ? (Christ)
Tourniquet
My suicide

post one hundred and fourty one

2006-01-02T20:50:00.000+13:00

i tihnk ill stay inside for good. i feel ill. im lonely. i hate myself so much.

i love fat bob

2006-01-01T22:50:00.000+13:00

Melancholy, Apathy, Angst

The Morose Sway

post one hundred and thirty ninth

2005-12-30T22:32:00.000+13:00

it was that. black jeans.

post one hundred and thirty eight

2005-12-30T17:43:00.000+13:00

oh so you think your not deppresse
D?

no not after that
we;ll you are and they are going to trap you behinf the wall.

shut up/

xxx

post one hundred and thirty seven

2005-12-28T20:31:00.000+13:00

its like rain its like god its like gothic its like im floating....open your mind to see love in its fullest vision, a perfect night without the screams of a child inside, its only her, shes ok now, its like a vision from the past its come back to tell us...we will survive.

post one hundred and thirty six

2005-12-28T11:52:00.000+13:00

flesh is burned to cinder in the moon daylight.

eins

2005-12-26T23:44:00.000+13:00

Achluophilia

post one hundred and thirty five

2005-12-26T23:07:00.000+13:00

lets dance this faiding life away

post one hundred and thirty four

2005-12-24T21:30:00.000+13:00

bunny!

Remember when you ran away and I got on my knees and begged you not to
leave because I'd go berserk?? Well...
You left me anyhow and then the days got worse and worse and now you see
I've gone completely out of my mind.. And..
They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa
To the funny farm. Where life is beautiful all the time and I'll be
happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they're
coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!!!

You thought it was a joke and so you laughed, you laughed when I had said
that loosing you would make me flip my lid.. RIGHT???
I know you laughed, I heard you laugh, you laughed you laughed and
laughed and then you left, but now you know I'm utterly mad... And..

They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa,
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa.
To the happy home. With trees and flowers and chirping birds and basket
weavers who sit and smile and twiddle their thumbs and toes and they're
coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!

I cooked your food, I cleaned your house, and this is how you pay me back
for all my kind unselfish loving deeds.. Huh??
Well you just wait, they'll find you yet and when they do they'll put you
in the ASPCA, you mangy mutt!!! And...

They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa.
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa.
To the funny farm, where life is beautiful all the time and I'll be happy
to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they're coming
to take me away, ha-haaa!!!
To the happy home, with trees and flowers and chirping birds and basket
weavers who sit and smile and twiddle their thumbs and toes and they're
coming to take me away, ha-haa!!!
To the funny farm, where life is beautiful all the time...

Post one hundred and thirty three

2005-12-23T19:25:00.000+13:00

yay bunny costume!

he haunts me you know. its all that you dont know. i put a stab into myself again, i want this on that.

sisters of mercy.

i can see myself now

2005-12-22T05:09:00.000+13:00

i dotn like it and i want to change. maybe ill fill my life with store-bought items to make me better.

Post one hundred and thirty two

2005-12-22T03:56:00.000+13:00

they dont want me. i gave up.

it stil gos through my mind. T-H-I-S I-S A C-R-Y F-O-R H-E-L-P.

2005-12-21T00:00:00.000+13:00

it was weird to see inez crying when she read my suicide note.
Eleven young people between the ages of 15 and 24 die every day by Suicide.
in 2001 more people died of suicide then motor accidents, drowning, falls, assult and homicide.
Among females, 15-24-year-olds had the highest age-specific suicide rate in New Zealand in 2002
More females are hospitalised for intentional self-harm than males. The female-to-male rate ratio for intentional self-harm in New Zealand was 1.95 female hospitalisations to every male hospitalisation per 100,000 population. Females more commonly choose methods such as self-poisoning, which generally are not fatal but are still serious enough to require hospitalisation.
For females, the age group with the highest hospitalisation rate for intentional self-harm (428.4 cases per 100,000 population, 584 cases) was the 15-19 years age group.

Post one hundred and thirty one

2005-12-20T22:55:00.000+13:00

lets be nothing. bela lolsuxx-x-x-x-'s dead.

ahh music. my one true friend.

some say iw as a freak, im not a freak. at least not yet.

post one hundred and thirty

2005-12-20T01:03:00.000+13:00

THE-CURE
RAMM-STEIN
+1

bop
-1

you love it when i do this

2005-12-17T23:41:00.000+13:00

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Schizoid		50%
Schizotypal		78%
Antisocial		26%
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Histrionic		42%
Narcissistic		34%
Avoidant		46%
Dependent		66%
Obsessive-Compulsive		38%

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post one hundred and twenty nine

2005-12-17T23:16:00.000+13:00

i don't want to live anymore

post one hundred and twenty eight

2005-12-17T11:31:00.000+13:00

i don't want to be buried in a pet cemetary!

post one hundred and twenty eight

2005-12-17T08:22:00.000+13:00

being out in public reminds me of why im scared of it. today im going to a goth meet-up. wish me luck. the trojans sway this way from it....i like lou reed

post one hundred and twenty seven

2005-12-15T13:10:00.000+13:00

happy happy. sewing is good for people you liek, sisters of mercy lets be gothic in your gothic life with gothic people under the cloven darkness. come along a while, show em the steps you take to fall intot eh darkness and thrive off the light heartedness of them. for they are knwoing of your shallow pale face and dark make-up under bauhaus's name.

I play were the darker kids play
I’m the one who goes out when you end your day.
I dance were the darker crowds dance,
In the pitch black clubs in a clove stained trance

post one hundred and twenty six

2005-12-13T16:46:00.000+13:00

hey ya

our phone at home doeesnt dial out , so i had to bail down the road coz i really wantedx to write to ya. did u have a gud nite saturday/sun? hope so. i did:>

what u think of the idea of me visiting you with *** and ******?

.................................................................................

its not that often that i go on the net so if your interested in getting in contact here i am:

[removed]

you left a real impression on me. hope to hear from ya Zannii

luf from ***

some of you wanted to know what insanityparade looks like

2005-12-12T01:16:00.000+13:00

egotistic!

post one hundred and twenty five

2005-12-12T00:15:00.000+13:00

i am fifteen and i am alive.

post oen hundred and twenty four

2005-12-08T21:19:00.000+13:00

im up and down mostly. today im up. im so happy. im feeling good, im scared about being down thought because ill crash so hard. however i have new gear=
camo pants
german industrial techno cyber goth goggles
leg armor
ear strecher
long cyber pvc skirt
pointy black cyber/industrial halter neck
ear cuff with chain and ear piercing

i am also awaiting my colored contact lenses to come about december 18th-12th

i miss ross, i miss alan. my agroaphobia is getting worse.

some weird guy talked to me today abnd the bad that didn't exists, i refuse to give in to there fucked ness it makes em worry for the god of us all we are not happy we are not pure we are losers sick sick dollys. i am a christian.

vermillion

2005-12-07T02:47:00.000+13:00

ims o slonely tright now its been going on for to long and i dont know how much,,, i cant take anymor ei just cvant this is too much i cant bevlie vi wanna go home im so lonely i dont get it nobody cares nim so alone im so alone i wish i was dead im so lonelym it hurts, nobdys understands,. hel-p.

post one hundred and twenty three

2005-12-07T01:32:00.000+13:00

loser fucking loser i hate you. die you fuck.

post one hundred and twenty two

2005-12-05T23:49:00.000+13:00

i dotn want to live anymore.

post one hundred and twenty one

2005-12-05T11:23:00.000+13:00

yummy yum. its all gone. lets see whats on. well my life is in auckland today wich will be fun but it ignores me because im just me and as we know im a fuckwit. yesah so um...keep writing at novel you fuck tard.

post one hundred and twenty

2005-12-03T10:22:00.000+13:00

you make me sick. its so disqusting. this page is diroppinhdgdgsefawef/

i dont like nora jones

2005-11-28T11:22:00.000+13:00

http://www.teenshope.com/MPj03091790000%5B1%5D.jpg

lets make you filthy like me

2005-11-28T11:12:00.000+13:00

everything's blue
in this world
the deepest shade of mushroom blue
all fuzzy
spilling out of my head
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my take on= happyness weed

come on tell me.
make this all go away.
you make this all go away.
i'm down to just to thing.
and i'm starting to scare myself.
make this all go away.
you make this all go way.
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i can't shake this feeling from my head.
i cannot make this feeling go away
i know it's not the right thing.
and I know it's not the good think.
but kinda i want to
i'm not sure of what i should do.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
maybe just for tonight.
we can pretend it's alright.
what's the price i pay.
i don't care what they say.
i want to.
i want to (i'll take my chance tonight)

post one hundred and nineteen

2005-11-28T11:09:00.000+13:00

when i was a child

i am a big man
(yes i am)
and i have a big gun
got me a big old dick and i
i like to have fun
held against your forehead
i'll make you suck it
maybe i'll put a hole in your head
you know, just for the fuck of it
i can reduce you if i want
i can devour
i'm hard as fucking steel, and i've got the power
i'm every inch a man, and i'll show you somehow
me and my fucking gun
nothing can stop me now
shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot
i'm going to come all over you
me and my fucking gun
me and my fucking gun

the commercials should be faster, because we are all just. slow. guns. waiting to
have our triggers pulled

post one hundred and nineteen

2005-11-28T11:05:00.000+13:00

me
-----------
hey pig
yeah you
hey pig piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true
black and blue and broken bones you left me here i'm all alone
my little piggy needed something new
nothing can stop me now
i don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
i just don't care
hey pig
nothing's turning out the way i planned
hey pig there's a lot of things i hoped you could help me understand
what am i supposed to do i lost my shit because of you
nothing can stop me now
i don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
i just don't care
nothing can stop me now
you don't need me anymore
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mux
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you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
help me i broke apart my insides, help me i've got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
i want to fuck you like an animal
i want to feel you from the inside
i want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex i can smell
help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
i want to fuck you like an animal
i want to feel you from the inside
i want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
i drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason i stay alive
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post one hundred and eightteen

2005-11-28T08:46:00.000+13:00

in the morning.

on the 12th of december i will be away :( so that goth meet-up isn't looking like it will get the go-ahead HOWEVER i am still in talks with the venue (a fucking cool one indeed) and i will be sure to try to get us booked in there for the 14th-15th when im not away/just got back with a hangover

mux was over. i am over it, anananana. wheres my dreams. um yeah so i am yeha um www.subkultures.com im on here!!

post one hundred and seventeen

2005-11-27T10:06:00.000+13:00

woken up feeling sick. ugh. my hump my hump my hump. mux is coming roudn today yay/

post one hundred and sixteen

2005-11-26T23:46:00.000+13:00

emotions dropped again....god when will this end?

some people have been saying they want to see me

2005-11-22T17:14:00.000+13:00

here i am=

post one hundred and fifteen

2005-11-22T11:08:00.000+13:00

/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\//\/\////////////////////////
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

yeah so it didn't work out how you wanted post one hundred and fourteen nath anh its ok i cant wait to get better tis lov ud i'm lovin it! haha. yeah amrk i do miss you but i miss my dad and my childhood and when i wasn't born. but im also in a good space now yeah thats it.

post one hundred and fourteen

2005-11-18T08:18:00.000+13:00

MOURNING = = = i am the best person in the world, i am the best person in the world, i am the best person in the world. the love of my life will be in the palm of my hand because we are escaping on december 7th to see my cuzzys w00t. metaphroical know-it-all you thinkyour so smart STOP TRYING TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU PAST YOU SICK FUCK, NOBODY LIKES YOU OR WANTS TO KNOW YOU

SONG=
Nothing is for you
Nothing was for you
Nothing remains for you
Nobody needs you
Ha ha ha ha

Everyone is laughing
Everyone is laughing - yeah
Everyone is laughing
at you

Nobody stands you
and no one needs you
Nobody needs you
but everyone needs me
Ha ha ha ha

Everyone is laughing
Everyone is laughing - yeah
Everyone is laughing
at you

zanny gets raped because she dosn't knwo you don't love her - nathan *quail*

post one hundred and fourteen

2005-11-16T08:22:00.000+13:00

she wanted to be completely alone?? nein! du hast....

its stopped itching because i'm getting dreadlocks. Asche zu Asche
und Staub zu Staub.

post one hundred and thirteen

2005-11-15T08:45:00.000+13:00

a sleepy zanny never pretends ot die die and wont be completely alone. she is buried in wet sand with a mimi bar in her hand. hahahahaha. if you are reading your hearing nothing. if you love dita then you will continue. continure and continure and corset and exams. i love you. picture!!!!11111:
http://www.avians.net/rkc/fan/maternal-nightmare.gif

scary huh? fucker.

im offline for a while since i dont have the net, sorry, ill be keeping a down pen casebook. 4u.

2005-11-14T13:46:00.000+13:00

Hey, you!
How are you? i saw your profile at www.***********.com
my name is laura, I'm 15 years old and I life in Germany I learn english in
school for 5 years. I saw at your profile, that you love Rammstein. I do it to!
Which musicans do you like without Rammstein?
Bye!
Laura
P.S.: please, write to *****_***@web.de

http://userpages.aug.com/sgraham/contest/tp-skinny.jpg

they took my pills off me because they think im better

2005-11-06T21:23:00.000+13:00

im not.

Post one hundred and twelve

2005-11-06T21:14:00.000+13:00

Spring
Erlöse mich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht
Spring für mich
Spring ins Licht
Spring

tnc tnc tnc stop it. go. lets rip TRI RIPE THEM RIP THEM OUT RIP THEM OUT OF YOUR RIPE BODY. RIP THEM OUT OF YOUR BODY.

just fuck off and dont forget to put me on the prozac so i dont fall off the big pill.
los. los los los los los los los los los los los los los los los los los los losssss

Post one hundred and eleven

2005-11-02T23:02:00.000+13:00

tastes even better when nightmare circle afrikkans

Post one hundred and eleven

2005-11-02T00:39:00.000+13:00

that looks like it...tastes good, in two days i won't be eating the meat again

Post one hundred and ten

2005-10-30T18:19:00.000+13:00

i was up late with absinthe and children.

If i am to die

2005-10-30T01:20:00.000+13:00

It is

2005-10-29T21:55:00.000+13:00

I like to put books on gay sex in the children section of the library when I am on drugs

Post one hundred and nine

2005-10-29T13:52:00.000+13:00

are you down to just ten things and you dont even scare yourself? because hes not around ,., making lies with your mouth. reconcile your losses and dont look the toher way. rammstein? nein1

post one hundred and eight

2005-10-27T18:44:00.000+13:00

let me speak. oh my fucking god i won a gym membership. licorishwip. lets put the past behind us and make a new place for just you and me and my eyes can see music.

post

2005-10-25T19:13:00.000+13:00

lolita

Post one hundred and seven

2005-10-24T15:10:00.000+13:00

links two links two links zoo zine zeer

sick huh? oh yes oh yes. i hate how everything i love is fucked over by blacks and there stupidity. i love comics.

Post one hundred and six

2005-10-21T13:37:00.000+13:00

im here.

Post one hundred and five

2005-10-20T13:36:00.000+13:00

till lundmann is my god of Deutschland. bjork smells. adam smells. i lost my jesus and my keys. well its all very well and boring in the land of acid writings. stp doing this its all over.

again.
picture:

Post one hundred and four

2005-10-19T15:09:00.000+13:00

making. skipping for knowledge forget yourself its over its sooo over its soo over its not even coming ba k because it is,. i wish i was a perfect circle and i told you to fuck off stop that its all stop now forgotten why eh dont use hpotos iunderscore bhkAWSEFjsefnjsefp

bleeeeeeeeeeeh. FAKES FAKES FAKES.

Post one hundred and three

2005-10-14T15:08:00.000+13:00

Do you hate the world?

Post one hundred and two

2005-10-10T13:42:00.000+13:00

well sinc ehe is gone lets go to the flower and fly god this is kick ass everything is lots of money gveve everypone is things and we :)

ok no more metaphores on this poist, everything is kick ass. my south african is cute, my past annoys me, gum rocks, nightwish rocks, rammstein is the best. hmmm all smiels from zanny and not you mr.kate

mwahaha. i did it.

Schönheit kommt immer mit dunklen thoughs

Post one hundred and one

2005-10-05T17:19:00.000+13:00

good star eh? mordavia and tnc and all that good non-mark stuff is coming up without your help or anything i know i care for youooooo rob. hmm, pen and stop if this post is being read so as you can see it is kalt.

oh my Ohne Dich

2005-10-03T17:04:00.000+13:00

Ninty Ninth Post

2005-10-03T15:27:00.000+13:00

wowo almost there, im rich, im gaer reich. germanic problems i see? no i just lost my stromffffontttttttttttttomoroow there is a problems with being out in public and seeing the stars under the sun. kallen
/ rammstien rammstein hehehe.

so i saw raoul and his kids, fun fun, :) TNC is up soon and engel ....ich will.

do YOU want a collection of rammstein photos to fuck up your blog? of course you do!

Ninty Eight Post

2005-09-29T13:44:00.000+12:00

never mind. we all get left behind, mm ice cream. i love roooooooooooge/ fuck ice cream id good

nintey seventh post

2005-09-27T09:24:00.000+12:00

Hoppe, hoppe.

Ninty Sixth Post

2005-09-25T09:33:00.000+12:00

well on my way to the green she said as the teddys continued to write. guten morgan mein kinder we will be going to the graves on tuedays to find out where we are going to lie in the hot sun as the crickets eat our sandwiches. and oiled man. this isn't me. stop ff. Heimlich werd ich auferstehen. it appears to be having some trouble with david firths fingers. because he's MY boyfriend. pictures coming soon.

Ninty Fifth Post

2005-09-23T21:17:00.000+12:00

"I'm perfectly happy. This represents a few problems, like, that I don't really need anything. Of course, people are forever trying to give me more reasons to be happy, but I just don't need them thanks. I saw an advertisement once that seemed to subtly hint that I could be happier if I purchased the company’s product. “Hah!” I thought. "You’re wrong!" And I stopped watching the advertisement immediately. I was buying some potato salad at the supermarket the other day, and the n00b behind the bar asked if I wanted a plastic fork. I could see where he was coming from, but he'd made the tactless mistake of not recognising me. So I just looked at him, a smile creeping across my face, and said "Do you know who I am?" He said "No?" And I just walked away. Yeah. I don't need his plastic fork to be happy. Ok so here I am living a life of immense satisfaction, and a guy at work says "How are you?" When people ask this question, it's clear they expect you to answer "good" and get on with it. Don't do that. I suggest you answer the question with 100% transparent honesty. Tell them exactly how wonderful you and the world around you are. I did. "Sunshine and rainbows" I said, and was on my way again, laughing to myself about how incredibly happy I am. Yesterday I thought things couldn't get better. Boy was I wrong. Today is easily twice the day yesterday was. Today is perfect. I mean, so was yesterday, but you'd expect that in a perfect world." - Craigy / www.exquire.blogspot.com

"If you want me to wait, I will wait for you If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through If you don't wanna say, Anything at all, I'm happy wondering, Ever since I met you, I never could forget you, I only wanna get you right here next to me, Now my life is changing, It's always rearranging, It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could, Ever since I found you, I wanna be around you, I wanna get down to the point that I need you, 'Cause everybody, Needs someone that they can trust and, You're somebody, That I found just in time, Don't tell me, The bad news, Don't tell me anything at all, Just tell me, That you need me, And stay right here with me" - Good Charlotte - Wondering

"Why don't you understand? I did it for us! This is supposed to make it easier! I thought you'd be proud of me! I thought at least of all people, I thought you would understand why I did this!" - Steven fee is gone and i love you so much.